Excitement

I got another interview invitation for post-grad dietetics in UK.

So far

London Metropolitan University – 13th March

Chester University – 4th March

I feel good about this. Becoming a dietitian is what I want. Science of food and nutrition is what I’m passionate about. Being able to clinically apply the knowledge I’ve gained so far, and will gain in the future to help people live better lives – empower them to make sustainable changes in their lifestyle and diet.

I’m pretty nervous about these interviews, but at the same time, I’m very excited. I’m excited to tell people what I’m passionate about, what my dreams are..just about what I really want to do with my life. I really do believe in pursuing this career. Not only to help and care for people, but also would be so rewarding on my behalf, a career that can be an eye-opener and perspective changer through something I would enjoy doing.

It is well known, for the majority anyways, that as we grow up ‘bigger’ mentally and physically, our hearts grows smaller. I agree to this to a great extent.
Due to many factors thrown at us in this lifetime, we realize the evil that lives within this world that constantly schemes to destroy the innocence we first had as children. We gain experience as we grow up – our perspective in life becomes intricate and more and more complicated … we become more selfish, we want whats best for us – everything we do, we have to gain something out from it – whats in it for me?

I do not know when I start to become the person I am today. At the end of the day, I have myself to blame.

🙂

Another thing I’m excited about is going away. Something I look forward to. Sometimes I feel like, I need to constantly find things, to search for things to do, – to wait for something significant to happen- to let me think I exist?

It is currently 03:07. Yes AM. For some bizarre reasons, I always have strong urges to write blogs during these kind of hours where everyone else is half way through dreamland. I have so many things I want to say, ocean of thoughts swirling  and tumbling around my mind. So messy. Nevertheless, the amount of mumble jumble in my head – they usually get filter and I end up not saying what I feel, in case they upset people.

I believe – Having too much care about what people think has always been a major issue we face everyday. We’re so afraid to voice out so that we don’t need to face possible rejections and to make a fool out of ourselves. I, for instance, always prefer to remain quiet,  to avoid any potential hurtful comments and judgments. I choose to be hidden in the shadow of someone else opinion, and of course behind any kind of medium – most likely my phone.

However, upon an obvious realization – even if you remain silent – someone somewhere will have something to say about you, your life and the choices you made, and of course why you didn’t make better choices? People will always guilt trip you. That’s life. So, why choose to hide your glory and hold back your beautiful voice when you can risk to be all you can be. This also mean having respect for yourself and people around you. You don’t have to like everyone, and not everyone have to like you, but everyone deserves to be respected – we are all inherently worthy of being humans and to be loved.

Haha – I am aware the flow here, well, what the heck, it’s not like I’m entering an english essay writing competition. This whole piece simply portrays what’s happening inside my head, right now XD

Final thoughts before I finally switch off.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.

Quote.

Fiona x

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